The War of the Mind

I always feel the two opposing forces in my mind. The one side that has dreams and hopes and wants to seek out and conquer whatever desire I have for myself. The other side viciously hell bent on my self destruction. It's hard to accept that such contrasting versions coexist inside of me. It's unsettling how quickly one force can overcome the other and then be met with swift retaliation. To one moment actually believe that I'm capable of making a difference in this world. Then out of nowhere like a heavy foot on my throat I can find myself feeling angry for simply being alive. Life is always testing the limits. I feel like it's been too long since I passed one of its tests.