Self isolation --- mind away from matter approach
After i post this i must for the sake of my mental well being log out and stay logged out for a sizeable amount of time:
to cultivate a sense of isolation, of the extreme anger to slowly but surely decrease
There is no way at all for me to explain what is going on, being as clear as possible would result in no comprehension from any being.
My mode of expression when always not comprehended is thus hopeless.
There is no use in saying anything to anyone.
I live in an abode where every single thing that happens causes concerns aplenty and rage.
These poisonous sensations that are always increased by what happens utterly ruins my expressive capacities, ha!! no capacities to speak of.
I want my thoughts here to impart some hope to good natured beings who aren't inherently offended and put off by whatever the hell i am, that as long as i refuse to take part in anything involving other people for however long a time it takes will afford me time and slowly gradual increase of a sense of composure
The first day or so is pure hell, even what i'm reading in a state of extreme anger is making me more angry, and this anger is ultimately directed towards myself.
I have no good reason to be anywhere around others, my posts here are a crime,
only isolation over a long period of time can cure this, whatever this is
I will have accomplished something, sensory deprivation, that is what could be called the cure
like when Aleister Crowley went to Egypt and deprived his senses
Toxins overflowing in my inner being, take an antibiotic quick after reading these cursed words.
to cultivate a sense of isolation, of the extreme anger to slowly but surely decrease
There is no way at all for me to explain what is going on, being as clear as possible would result in no comprehension from any being.
My mode of expression when always not comprehended is thus hopeless.
There is no use in saying anything to anyone.
I live in an abode where every single thing that happens causes concerns aplenty and rage.
These poisonous sensations that are always increased by what happens utterly ruins my expressive capacities, ha!! no capacities to speak of.
I want my thoughts here to impart some hope to good natured beings who aren't inherently offended and put off by whatever the hell i am, that as long as i refuse to take part in anything involving other people for however long a time it takes will afford me time and slowly gradual increase of a sense of composure
The first day or so is pure hell, even what i'm reading in a state of extreme anger is making me more angry, and this anger is ultimately directed towards myself.
I have no good reason to be anywhere around others, my posts here are a crime,
only isolation over a long period of time can cure this, whatever this is
I will have accomplished something, sensory deprivation, that is what could be called the cure
like when Aleister Crowley went to Egypt and deprived his senses
Toxins overflowing in my inner being, take an antibiotic quick after reading these cursed words.
46-50, M
