Idk where's my mind HAHAHAHAH

LIKE- HOLD UP HOLD UP- 💀 SHOULD I BE SAD OR SHOULD I BE HAPPY? I mean like- there.. there's no any like, I don't know but, I feel like there's nothing to be worried or sad about when I got my friends, classmates, the life I want, the family, but still.. I don't know what keep pressuring me like.. seriously, there's nothing to be feel sad about but when I'm lonely, or alone with myself, I would started to feel the energy was draining and somehow I feel like I'm in myself world that I created and feel everything was unreal, I feel like this body of mine, wasn't mine, is just another people's body, and I just use it for fun, but still.. I am confused, I'm confused how the world goes, I feel like.. I feel I can't hold it anymore but something keep pressuring me for let me stay alive, Idk. Idk anymore Idk what am I, Idk my personality, Idk my mind, Idk my heart, Idk how to be brave enough, idk how to stop all this negative feelings around me, idk how to comfort people, idk how. Idk how to feel when ppl say they wanna leave me, idk anymore, idk why I can't feel anything when they say they want to leave me because am annoying, idk why I can't feel anything when they want to suicide or smth, idk why my mind is not even working, Idk why but I feel like I'm the mess. Idk when I'm gonna die, Idk when I'm gonna approach my goal, Idk why am still alive, idk why ppl would wanna leave, idk why would my heart still feel like nothing, Idk what happened to my body, my heart just so alone? so lonely? it feels so empty like.. idk why. but my mind would say is because nothing, and I can't even remember what happened about me, my mind is just went blank as well, Idk why when I go to school, my smile my happiness would just pop out, but when I'm in home, all I feel is annoyed, triggered, angry and.. negative, I feel like I want to go out, but i don't want to go out with my family, why why why why why why why why why why why why why why.. I'm a teenager, but still.. why why why why I already feel lost and empty, why. why why why why

Mamapolo2016 · F

In youth there is a hunger - possibly hormonal at least in part - for "what's out there".

A tiger in a cage.

That restless ache is all part of the deal. As @SW-User said, happiness isn't a state of being, it's (sometimes) a result. A job well done (by your own standards), a project completed, a random kindness done for somebody else, a new skill learned.

Going out doesn't create happiness. It creates distraction, which sometimes seems like happiness.

Remember, wherever you go, there you are.

SW-User

You cannot will happiness. Treating it as some sort of objective will only push it further away. Happiness can come when we are looking the other way, even thinking more of others than ourselves.

Try a bit of meditation. Simple concentrating on the breath as it goes in an out. Keep at it and a lot of obsessive thoughts will simply wither away, even when not formally meditating.

PhilDeep · 51-55, M

Wow. Welcome to SW. I hope you use paragraphs in some of your posts. It might then be more likely anyone would read them. All the best now.