The thing is with me I don’t know what I really want in life

I have the money to do almost anything I want with but I get all overwhelmed because I don’t know which things I really want , I don’t know if it’s impulse or if I really want it deep down , it gets all lonely at times , even sometimes after I’ve got what I wanted I still feel depressed because there’s stuff missing money can’t buy or I’m not happy afterwards and I either want something else or I don’t like it anymore. For example I could easily buy my own house , but I don’t want to live we’re I was born , but if I moved away to my dream country which I easily could , I would have to leave my best friend and boyfriend behind. So I’m always feeling sad because I never realised what I truly want in life and until I do , no matter what I have , I will always be sad. By the way my parents never had the money so everything I have now I did myself , I’m just an bit burnt out as I’ve worked extremely hard and I’m probably just feeling it now and I’m just not happy because I feel like I haven’t done enough for myself although I can buy anything I want , I just feel an bit depressed, but I’m just sad because no matter what I do My dad is never proud of me or congratulates me , I don’t understand as he never had anything himself. I know this doesn’t make any sense to anyone else but me , it’s just an diary entry because I feel an bit burnt out , and I haven’t really had the energy to even go holiday it’s been that bad , nothing really interests me right now , I just don’t understand why I’m so depressed at the moment.