an isolated existence

that's what i live...ive lived alone 20 years now, lost touch with the 1 or 2 friends i had...my only support mechanism is my mother and father who are elderly now, and they live far away from me....about an hours drive by car.

i suffer with mental health problems, ptsd, a personality disorder, paranoia, high anxiety so its difficult to go outside and just control my composure at times,............so i live as a shut in, and i feel very isolated at times and get bored...lonely and i mope about..............my only goal is to find a life partner but at nearly 47, i wonder how that will happen?

can anyone understand or relate?

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PoetryNEmotion · F

You are getting older. You have many problems. I doubt you will find a partner. What have you to offer one? Can you not get therapy? Join a support group? If you do not change you, you have no chance to find a partner. Can you understand this? Do it now. Before you cannot ever.