The past is what made you who you are today, for better or worse...sort of like soup. You put too much seasoning in it well you can't get it out, you can add other seasoning but that can change the flavor but you still can't get out the first so before like you have a fun mess of soup that may be great...just keep adding new things to your soup.

Why it hurts is that your holding on to it and your self sabotaging yourself to hurt yourself more when the healing is coming

Meee too. Totally normal. If you need to talk , message me

I suggest you move forward. Learn from the past. You are bsrely past your teen yesrs. Life has many lessons to teach you. Get out of your head.