Not like "wilding out" doing dumb things or clubbing or drinking and drugs, or just no morals...just too wild in spirit. I never gave this much thought until I was stripped from everything and thrown away. I can't stand being a homebody, or staying in one place for too long, or "settling down" to raising a family, getting into politics and trying to compete with everything going on right now.I'm not happy trying to fit in the system or society norms or trying to be somebody in an unforgiving economy just to survive a world [b]we (as in man-made)[/b] created. I'm troubled by it because I can't fit in. Sure, one could adapt, not saying I never did or tried...but it's not the life I want. I'm happier having all that I own fit in a backpack and just having a space to be away from all these electronics and learning/living in a world around me in the outdoors. Because reality is, we don't "own" anything and the man made stuff isn't forever. It either gets passed on or is devalued or trashed, or even sized by someone or a governing body in the end of it. Reality doesn't care about that. For example, I love history and I can tell you that most of the land the town I live close to was owned by a German immigrant back in the mid 1800's like 1846 if I recall correctly. 342 acres or something like that. Personal property that was eventually taken piece by piece to develop a township after the caretakers were massacred by the Apache in the region. All that's left now is the old cabin on a hill from that time and everything else is overly developed. Even further, where I live and the surrounding area before it was settled by immigrants, was home to all the wildlife and Indian tribe(s) that lived there. Anyways, my viewpoint and understanding, and just who I am, I guess it makes me more of a "wild" person that others have trouble keeping up with you know? I don't care if I am rich because I rather live humble. I don't care about if I have a highly reputable career because nobody's gonna care who I was or even know my name a few generations in the future. I don't care if I live alone because my lifestyle isn't about pride, convenience, or anything about raising a family that majority of people would want. I do care about being able to make some sort of a living so I can have permission by the world today to live my life in peace among nature or nomadically on the road...and I care about preserving history because it's fascinating and lifetimes of knowledge that people don't know that could come in handy when the country takes an unwilling hard reset like when the Roman Empire fell. It's just been hard lately. The stress of having to compete with things now after taking a huge fall from where I've been, the fact I don't fit in because I'm just a survivalist and nomadic at heart, and people don't care about those things anymore so I don't relate to anyone... it's a long and lonely road...so I may just be too wild.
If you made it this far. I'm sorry for the long vent. Here's a picture from my adventures.
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This is me to a T. If the weather would stay nice and I had more life skills and less arthritic joints..I would live this kind of life. I guess that makes me a street rat or..a Christian?
I mean, the Bible specifically says to get rid of all I have and give it to the poor. That is the True Definition. Not this republicanism doctrine of judgement.
I was super into the tiny house movement thing for awhile, but it is actually so pricey..you have to have a 70k truck to pull it, or pay 3k per move, so it isn't as free as it seems. You can also put it in someone's backyard and be a glorified roommate.
I was just telling a friend this past week how very weighted down I feel by my possessions, and how much happier i would be as someone like the una馃挘er, who somehow found a way to live off of 3k a year, in the woods.
I have always wanted to find my rugged cabin guy, who listens to Seven Mary Three and makes me feel safe. Such simple things, honestly.
I went so far (again, this past week) as to message a guy on TikTok who goes to Lagos, Nigeria and helps the poor..I wanted to join him ha. I don't know how practical it is.
I do own a home, but only because I was scared of how high rents are getting. I haaate home ownership.
@foldedunfolding hahaha I hear ya! Now, let me be clear, I grew up a "normal urbanite" life. Heck I'm typing all this out in my folk's house that's worth like half a million now? So by no means am I trying to come off as some overly unconventional condescending hypocritical ass. Lol I did trade that life for what I have (or really don't have) now at a huge price. I'm here right now as a guest since the alternative is being on the streets...and that's way more dangerous than what I'm looking for especially now since war and hardships are around the corner.
Before the economy got worse several years ago, I had a decent good paying job, had a nice Tacoma and a nissan commute car, nice clothes, could afford to spoil myself if I really wanted to, had my own apartment too (although I was cheap about that which was dumb since it got broken in to twice). Anyways, it's all gone now. Lost it all. Did end up homeless in the 2021 winter freeze for three months, somehow survived because I had COVID at that time too. Honestly,this was the best thing to ever have happened now in hindsight. I did before all that want the finer things of life and had them...but it wasn't what made me truly happy because I always wanted more. I was prideful over my things and my job. I thought I was billy bob badass. After two years, here I am chatting with you now. Even though I don't have to, I'm now [i]choosing[/i] to remain modest and putting more focus in living my life in a humbled, adventurous, disciplined style. As in, I'm limiting my time with electronics like my phone, tv, and whatnot to practice other skills all day or reading the gospel, not eating out and cooking or going to the dollar store, and saving up for a CDL so I can be a nomad and get paid for it. And so I don't lose my sanity, I spend time outdoors in state parks so I remember not to lose my sight on what's important.
@RedGrizzly i was thinking about getting my CDL for awhile too, actually. Just made me a little nervous to go it alone, and to have to parallel park them.
you are actually living my dream. i hate these nightmarish ones i have about like..being at a buffet and never getting enough food..or needing to hurriedly move and never having time to get all of my things.
there is part of me that feels like i have to impress people somewhat to even survive..but i would far rather be my natural self and not even HAVE a body..just be some ethereal, floating entity that FLITS.
why am i not surprised you read the gospel too? i hope you will stay electronic at least long enough for me to get to know you.
@foldedunfolding lol I hope that [i]when[/i] you make a little bit of changes to where you're happier it's not gonna take something drastic like the rest of my backstory (notice I said "when" because I know you'll take some of these examples and may apply them more to the life you have). Yeah those fears are legit where you're afraid of going without. It's a tough change to go through. I thought the same, especially when I was on the streets living in the truck. But you never know how resilient you are until it just happens like that. People died in the winter of 2021 here in Texas...in their homes from the cold. They didn't have electricity because ERCOT is full of shit and the water was cut off in places. But knowledge is everything and resourcefulness takes you far. 馃槃 I'm actually doomsday prepping for this year's winter since the good ol' almanac is predicting another freeze. Also, since we have common ground spiritually.. remember this, the most important thing, trust Jesus. He's with you, he hears you, and knows you better than yourself and will take care of you. The spirit of fear doesn't come from him, and things are getting scarier in the world especially after Israel got wrecked and all that chaos even here in America...but through all of this, no matter what, we are in victory with Christ. You're here for a reason, that's not a mistake and golly you're gonna fulfill that purpose and he'll fulfill his promise with you. 馃榿馃憤
@foldedunfolding lmao San Antonio a.k.a. rachet city. And you're welcome. Let me tell you something, I stand by what I said. I fell asleep behind the wheel on the ramp up I10 at that intersection and the road that goes into Comfort. I was by myself, I felt I had been asleep for several minutes, and a voice I've never heard before that sound like someone was in the truck with me yelled, [b]"Wake Up!"[/b] I jolted. If I wasn't gonna die from a wreck, it was gonna be a heart attack lol...but I always think about that when I think God has been ignoring me or that I'm alone in my own troubles. Because that testimony of never being alone, for me is completely unshakeable. I hope that may remind you now and later when you're feeling everything is hopeless or doomed. It's not. He died for us, me and you and everyone else, and even if there was only one person in the world, he'd died for them too. We are [i]cherished[/i]. So therefore, he's not gonna let you fall. 馃槉I'm happy this reached you at time you needed it.
@foldedunfolding lmao I'll be around here and you can get to know me. No worries! Can't be all Amish because ya gotta have a phone for everything, you know. 馃槀 Okie dokie so San Antonio is a mixed bag. Westside are gangsters. East side is dark (if you know, you know). Southside has ALL the hole in the wall places with great food and it's overran by Mexicans. Definitely want to know Spanish. Lol North West side is posh white people, and Northeast side is where you have tons of businesses and industrial places... almost like an extension of downtown. Inside 410 loop it's just an urban jungle WOULD NOT RECOMMEND to live unless you want to hear gunshots at night and see meth heads. Hope that helps in your real estate endeavors. Lol
@foldedunfolding you got it! By no means do I mean anything racist by it, but it's weird that San Antonio kinda segregated itself. Lol it's something you'll notice being here among other things that's way different from Austin. Lol There are good places here though. Anywhere closer to 1604 loop or outside of it is pretty decent. Not all bad but wanted to give you a short run down of things.
