Am I ever gonna get over the self hatred?

I'm trying to detect the triggers...
Is it physical exhaustion and blaming myself for causing it?
Constant disappointment in myself?
Mistakes (that turned out to be okay in reality...) but still grave if turned out otherwise?
Disappointing some people I look up to and respect?
Failing to take care of myself properly?
Failing to manage stress from work and other events?
Failing to focus and keeping the procrastination?

I usually like to radiate good energy around people, but now my closest ones are noticing how sad have I been looking recently.

Is it... the smooth transition of the cycle?

I wish I could find a solution to this low mood of mine.

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DunningKruger · 61-69, M

You have a choice — continue in the manner you have, or choose to recognize your value and worth. It is a choice you make every single day, and you have to do it until it becomes muscle memory, instinct. It isn't easy at all, but one choice is to be OK with that, to get back up and climb into the saddle.

Friendlyperson · 26-30, F

@DunningKruger Actually, these thoughts of self hatred started creeping in recently. Because of hypomania, I have been able to feel awesome and productive and everything (I have talked about it in some of my posts in my BPD collection)... but then those old feelings of failure and those insecurities started showing up full force. I am trying to deal with them, to take better care of myself, to prioritize my health physical and mental, but it is still hard. That's why I posted about it here... I only post those negatively charged posts when I can't keep it in anymore.

DunningKruger · 61-69, M

@Friendlyperson Even more reason to remain consistent in what you choose to believe and feel. Riding the waves up and down can be catastrophic, as I'm sure you know. Just know that there are people who care about you and who want to support you.

Friendlyperson · 26-30, F

@DunningKruger
I am trying to be.
Living with mental health disorders come with its own disadvantages, among with which putting extra efforts to keep yourself stable and sane and in the best days 'happy'...
Thank you for your words though, I appreciate it.

DunningKruger · 61-69, M

@Friendlyperson Yes, it's work, a constant effort. But you can do it.

Friendlyperson · 26-30, F

@DunningKruger I hope so, thank you Dunning.
Btw, is your name inspired from the Dunning Kruger effect?

DunningKruger · 61-69, M

@Friendlyperson Yes. My name is actually Richard.

Friendlyperson · 26-30, F

@DunningKruger Nice to meet you Richard ^^ thank you for being around.