every weekend I commit mental suicide

via alcohol. because I just cannot cope. I don't understand life and the pain it brings. I cannot do this.

So instead of actual suicide...... cheers.

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Penny · 46-50, F

it can become physical suicide as well though maybe a slow one depending on how your body reacts to the alcohol

HellsBelle · 36-40, F

@Penny agreed.... my dad died at 49 due to drinking. but no matter how much people tell me the logical stuff, like you, Ive lost my life passion. people say rejuvinate yourself with your passion......but I literally dont know mine. I feel dead, a ghost wandering earth waiting to be absolved. my one passion, that keeps me going..... is seeing the beach again. and even then that is a passion hanging by a thin thread