I Am Sad

I am actually depressed and want to die. I am trying to decide if it's just my hormones or if it is an actual desire. Usually I can tell but not so much right now. All I want to do is cry and my feelings are flat or non existent. I am at work, I want to quit. Don't get me wrong, my life is not bad by any means, I just want out.

What do I need to do to want to again? Where do I find the want to? I know all that is within me but I struggle with desire. I lost interest and now just go through the motions. My meds can only do so much, maybe I should see a therapist but I just don't know if that really is the answer. I know my life is on me and I am the only one that can turn it around. It's not hard it's just not worth doing in my mind anyway.

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Landstrom11 · 26-30, M

Visit friends, take a vacation, go on a road trip, make plans. Set something to work towards. Depression sucks but it's something that just kinda happens from time to time I think you're brain is just trying to tell you it wants more excitement and fun.

mljenkins · 51-55, F

@Landstrom11 I just did all three and honestly feel worse. Because of the Hurricane Irma I went o Tennessee and visited friends and family and it was a great visit and the road trip was not so bad but it did not help my depression.