Stress is having a bad affect on Emotions [I Would Go Back In Time If I Could]

I do not know how to describe the emotion I am feeling right now. I had decorated for Fall. I have a trillus in my bedroom and I had decorated it with Fall leaves and followed with lights. The lights on the trillus makes the room brightens the room so I do not have to use the ceiling light. This morning I had taken down the leaves and put up a different flowers followed by the same lights. I took the leaves off the trillus so I could use them elsewhere. And I took it down because it is getting difficult with daily stress and I just felt so discouraged this morning about what is going on. I just wanted to take everything down and felt "what the hell". It seems that my mom is very depressed because of medical situations like when she goes to the hospital ER, at times the doctor and nurses are rude to her which makes her depressed.

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taLking5 · 51-55, F

Thanks Vicaci. I love to listen to music, in fact I have a music list on Spodify,youtube and a long list of music on my computer. When I want to turn off the world I will listen to music especially if it is something from back in the 1980s, 1990s, or even music from this day and time. I listen to music mostly at night when everyone is asleep. I'd lay on the bed in the bedroom and listen to great music. When I listen to music, I will imagine myself singing the song (I can't sing worth a lick.) lol; then after awhile I will fall off to sleep. When I get out of bed, I know that I will not return back due to checking on my mother just to be sure that she is okay (I am a care person for my mother), I feed the pets, then go to the bathroom. After I leave the bathroom, I will find something to do like decorate, take out the trash, do laundry or browse on the computer.

I think about things I can be happy about right now like seeing places in the house I've decorated for the holidays, things that I am thankful for, glad I am not homeless (I used to be). It's just the fact of seeing someone being depressed in my home like my parent? I try to do all I can but....... But I am glad you brought up music. I love it, love to listen to it but I can not sing nor play instruments.

Vivaci

@taLking5 Yes, you're doing the right thing by taking it slow. Sometimes life can get too overwhelming, but if you have music in your life then you're saved, my friend. 🎼🤗

It's the best therapy for the heart and soul...also, like I said before, try going to waterbodies like lake or a stream or a beach near you. Water tends to heal us sooner than music...it'll give you lots of positive energy. I'm glad you have a roof over your head. I pray you find a good work from home job so that your future looks bright n hopeful.

Sending you lots of positive vibes...🍀🌸💙✨

Vivaci

It's ok to feel bogged down by the stressful events around you... but don't let it keep you down. Try to go out for a nice walk or stroll around the lake or beach nearby. Water tends to recharge us...💞🤗

Listen to some good music and dance. For an hour, just love for yourself. Give yourself the ME time you need. And then redecorate the room.

Wishing you a great day ahead...🍀🌸💙

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