It was time for the permanent goodbye

I can’t be this person that’s being taken for granted an disrespected. I’ve blocked you on everything & it’s so hard for me not to unblock you an see how you are doing but why would when you will never change. I’m hurting in silent, I pretend I’m happy you’re gone from life but I’m forever hoping you find your happiness with someone new because I now know that I was never the one for you. I’m crying inside may take me years to recover from this separation but this is best for me, I need to start looking out for me. Days are so long an I’m not sleeping, I feel like a zombie With no will to care, just pour myself some vodka a drink away….. Ugh, I really needed to vent & this is the type of cycle of emotional abuse I don’t want to keep running back to. I will not be dickmitized if he try’s again to get in contact with me. I have to stop being so easily to manipulated.