Because he suffers so, he’ll never know

As the lily pads fluttered with each breeze
Across the pond, I held you
For so long in the sunlight, watching

I felt we could be forever there
And feel it is forever here, now

You cannot see, won’t see, defiantly
How much you have always meant to me

We spoke the same language
For so long, with time in between
Always searching for each other

And then we found, and fit
But that’s just it
My love is uncomfortable to accept
So it seems threatening, either pure
Or as your mind needed to twist it

Yet it comes from a vulnerable place
Devotion so complete
Greater than the cosmos we all swim from

You’re leaving and you can’t see me here
Blocked, shoved away, left to decay
As I only fight for another day
So close, so close this time

I am her.