Goodbyes are always difficult

My grandfather died two years ago around late May. He had chronic obstructive pulmonary disorder and got covid too. My grandfather also had cancer at one point on top of everything. My grandmother died a year ago in late June. She didn’t recover from having a massive stroke. Both died tragically in the hospital. I remember them and for my mom this time of year is always really difficult. It’s been a rough life for all of us. I was told goodbye by my ex boyfriend and at that time friend in March 2024. He didn’t want to be friends anymore when he got engaged. It’s ironic because since he left me for a while my life just got worse. I broke up with him originally mostly for his own good and future but realized I made a mistake. He thought it was better for me to find someone in real life to love for my future. I know I hurt him so much. He said he loved me and part of him wanted to get back together with me ( this was a while before he dated someone else and got engaged quickly) but he loved me too much to hurt me further and wasn’t going to do that to me. He told me he would always be my friend but things changed. The love of my life is gone. Well I tried reaching out to preserve the friendship but no response in two years. To this day I still miss everyone. I know he is out there living his life and I wish him the best because I will always love him. Sometimes letting go is the best thing you can do for someone. He’s probably happily married now and been a for a long time. I look at the lessons he taught me and the impact he left behind. I changed for the better from knowing him. My beautiful pure hearted Sujeet. Thing is he still has an account here but it looks like he has not been on it for a long time. I miss and love everyone each day. Even telling him I had cancer was not enough to get him to talk to me again. That really hurt. There is nothing I can do. He doesn’t want to be found or contacted obviously. Sometimes I feel numb inside but all I can do is love people in my heart and continue on. The essence of their love will always be there and bonds are unbreakable even in separation ( Sujeet) and death. ( my grandparents). Love does not die because the memories you have keep the bond alive. I especially grieved. My ex. Everyone will always hold a special place in my heart and soul. I will not forget any of them even after I die…