Saying goodbye to Spencer

I never got to say goodbye to her
I never got to go to her funeral
I never got to go to her grave
I didn't even know where she was until now.

Seeing her grave was hard.
It was a simple stone saying her name the date and beloved daughter. That's it.

It's clear no one was visited her in a while earlier. So we cleaned out around the stone and I laid the flowers down that I got her. Different colors of tulips. They were her favorite.

Saying goodbye was the hardest thing I've ever done. I don't think I've cried like this before in my life. I hurt so much. Everything hurts right now. Everything is numb right now. This hurts so much

But I did it. I got to say goodbye to her

This sister of mine