Some darklings I wrote. It expresses my world right now. My thoughts that I keep silent and hidden. Some can understand. Some can relate. Don't judge.
"Set Me Free"
I'm starving myself from romance. Between all that's going on in my world, I can't grasp even the thought of it. I find myself bound by the endless times and troubles of today, consuming me and chasing away my tomorrows. Work schedules. Family goings on. Drama from every nook and cranny seems to seep in between the cracks of my fingers. I chase away the thoughts of long, slow, deep, soft, wet kisses that last three days.
I'm dying here, and I need to be rescued. Take away my whiskey and cigarettes. Replace them with deep soulful conversations. Let me gaze into your soft brown eyes and contemplate orgasmic beginnings with no end. Sunsets turn into sunrises with no sleep in-between, only the pleasure of your company, your laughter, your tears from your deepest secrets and I chase away our demons with intense love and passionate touch.
I need this. I crave it more than any liquid or smokey drug. Become my catalysts and guide me to new beginnings. I shall remove the chains and ropes that bind me, and break down the walls I've built up as of late. Set free the love that I've kept hidden underneath the cloak of safety. I'm done with the status quo and the comfort of nothingness. Set me free.
-Montana.😔❤️🌹😎
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"My Demons Keep Me Company "
My demons temp me with a quick fix. Whiskey Shots with empty and hollow promises of just two. Alone in my thoughts, my grief goes unanswered. Unfelt. Numb is my heart, and now my head. Nobody can answer the questions of love and legacy. Of worth and matter. Do I matter? Did I ever? Why then did you leave me empty and alone, with nothing? While the other, got everything. The whole ball of wax. Its okay, as the day burns into another lonely night, my demons keep me company, so I'm not really drinking alone. Am I ?
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@StarLily thank you so very much. Now that ive been honest, that's the first step. But actions speak louder than words. Ove given myself till the end of August to make a difference., starting now. 🤗🥰🌹 Middle of September now. I'm shooting for November. 🙄😔🤗
@Montanaman I agree with it being the first step. With acknowledgement (honesty) often comes acceptance of what is... and yes, from there taking action can propel us into the potential for a desired result.
But I hope you won't expect perfection from yourself... that you'll recognize your efforts, be kind, and patient with yourself. 🤗
