Some darklings I wrote. It expresses my world right now. My thoughts that I keep silent and hidden. Some can understand. Some can relate. Don't judge.
"Set Me Free"
I'm starving myself from romance. Between all that's going on in my world, I can't grasp even the thought of it. I find myself bound by the endless times and troubles of today, consuming me and chasing away my tomorrows. Work schedules. Family goings on. Drama from every nook and cranny seems to seep in between the cracks of my fingers. I chase away the thoughts of long, slow, deep, soft, wet kisses that last three days.
I'm dying here, and I need to be rescued. Take away my whiskey and cigarettes. Replace them with deep soulful conversations. Let me gaze into your soft brown eyes and contemplate orgasmic beginnings with no end. Sunsets turn into sunrises with no sleep in-between, only the pleasure of your company, your laughter, your tears from your deepest secrets and I chase away our demons with intense love and passionate touch.
I need this. I crave it more than any liquid or smokey drug. Become my catalysts and guide me to new beginnings. I shall remove the chains and ropes that bind me, and break down the walls I've built up as of late. Set free the love that I've kept hidden underneath the cloak of safety. I'm done with the status quo and the comfort of nothingness. Set me free.
-Montana.😔❤️🌹😎
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"My Demons Keep Me Company "
My demons temp me with a quick fix. Whiskey Shots with empty and hollow promises of just two. Alone in my thoughts, my grief goes unanswered. Unfelt. Numb is my heart, and now my head. Nobody can answer the questions of love and legacy. Of worth and matter. Do I matter? Did I ever? Why then did you leave me empty and alone, with nothing? While the other, got everything. The whole ball of wax. Its okay, as the day burns into another lonely night, my demons keep me company, so I'm not really drinking alone. Am I ?
If you truly want love, then become loveable. Women are very guarded about who they let into their lives. Appearance and demeanor both matter. Be approachable, kind, and humble. They will find you. 😉
@StarLily thank you so very much. Now that ive been honest, that's the first step. But actions speak louder than words. Ove given myself till the end of August to make a difference., starting now. 🤗🥰🌹 Middle of September now. I'm shooting for November. 🙄😔🤗
@Montanaman I agree with it being the first step. With acknowledgement (honesty) often comes acceptance of what is... and yes, from there taking action can propel us into the potential for a desired result.
But I hope you won't expect perfection from yourself... that you'll recognize your efforts, be kind, and patient with yourself. 🤗
your thoughts and feelings expressed with such depth and thought ,you have touched many chords within my soul your feelings and expression of what you want and need are there in many of my day to day thoughts .I feel your pain and need in every word .Your true self has shined through and I thankyou for sharing such honest and humble personal words .
That’s why I think it is so important to express our feelings in words as it helps others to feel connected in a small way with the world and others . @Montanaman
@Montanaman So glad to know you've found your catharsis you needed. It's those raw vulnerabilities, the one's you so freely admit to in your writing , and you already know I admire due to the courage it takes to express them that'll definitely have both hearts soaring once you say them to her. I'm sure if you were to show her this poem for starters, her heart would smile once again, as I'm pretty sure she misses the "you" that wandered off track for a brief period. From all the musings she's inspired for years now, I'm sure she will appreciate this one the most. All those words also make me confident that beautiful woman has an understanding and forgiving heart full of patience. So please be forgiving and patient with your own self while remembering to take baby steps. You've totally got this, my friend.💝🤗
