how do you fight dark thoughts
throughout my life i have suffered from dark thoughts at times, affected by depressive thoughts too...i have come a long way though, all by myself, with my main support my wonderful mother, who has helped me a great deal...my mum has been my spiritual guide really and been though all of my dark times with me...my mother tells me all the time i mustn't ever give in to these dark thoughts and kick them out right away....and talk to god and Jesus and give everything to him and ask god to be in my heart and guide me, as i have been doing.
and i have triumphed in so many ways over my psychological problems and dark thoughts, with my own effort and will, but also because of my mums love and support and wonderful words she told me through the years.
but at times the dark thoughts come back and i just feel ' disturbed spiritually' is how to best put it...i feel alone in those times, secluded from humanity....my mum lives far from me now, i live alone in a flat by myself, lived here 20 years now.........i know what has caused my dark thoughts recently, it's my own fault really...i was watching old clips from the 1973 film the exorcist and reading people's comments on the different scenes and their philosophy on it...and i noticed within myself, the dark disturbing thoughts...as watching what i did made me think of the concept of evil, evil spirits and the afterlife....which i tend to think of a lot.
but the way my mum speaks to me everyday, she washes away all these dark thoughts and ideas as she tells me the wonder of god and the after life which is full of love and light and the infinite love of god and this washes away and defeats all the dark thoughts i get.
but i didn't help myself tonight by going to look at exorcist film content on youtube and now the dark disturbing thoughts returned...but i can't phone my mum now as she will be asleep in bed, she phones me 4 times a day to check in with me and talk to me, support me...it's now 10:43pm and my mother will be fast asleep in bed now.....so how can i vanquish these dark disturbing thoughts on my own?
and i have triumphed in so many ways over my psychological problems and dark thoughts, with my own effort and will, but also because of my mums love and support and wonderful words she told me through the years.
but at times the dark thoughts come back and i just feel ' disturbed spiritually' is how to best put it...i feel alone in those times, secluded from humanity....my mum lives far from me now, i live alone in a flat by myself, lived here 20 years now.........i know what has caused my dark thoughts recently, it's my own fault really...i was watching old clips from the 1973 film the exorcist and reading people's comments on the different scenes and their philosophy on it...and i noticed within myself, the dark disturbing thoughts...as watching what i did made me think of the concept of evil, evil spirits and the afterlife....which i tend to think of a lot.
but the way my mum speaks to me everyday, she washes away all these dark thoughts and ideas as she tells me the wonder of god and the after life which is full of love and light and the infinite love of god and this washes away and defeats all the dark thoughts i get.
but i didn't help myself tonight by going to look at exorcist film content on youtube and now the dark disturbing thoughts returned...but i can't phone my mum now as she will be asleep in bed, she phones me 4 times a day to check in with me and talk to me, support me...it's now 10:43pm and my mother will be fast asleep in bed now.....so how can i vanquish these dark disturbing thoughts on my own?
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