The surprising self-realization that I don't have social skills...

So, maybe I should have reached this conclusion earlier and maybe I kind of did in the past, but silently sitting in a social circle today as everyone else was deep in conversation with each other so effortlessly, I guess I realized I don't have social skills. That may or might not be social anxiety, but that's really beside the point.

I just don't know HOW to be social. For all this time, I've been trying to figure out what I can do to improve my social performance, but surprisingly the issue is I don't have any social skills to improve on... like none. I'm not sure how that happened exactly. I think I used to have at least the basic skills. But not now.

So, that's my starting point I now realize.