A woman started talking to me at the gym and I politely listened to her
I remember when I was in sixth grade, I was hanging out with this one friend group. I was in that kind of stage in my life I was with this group of friends who I guess they were the popular kids, but I wasn't really popular. I was just kind of in it. And then I realized that these people were not the people I should be friends with. And they didn't want me
either. I was just the quiet kid on the side.
There's this kind of situation of like people hang out with people. It's like a giant friend group and there's always
an inner friend group within a large friend group and people get left out. And I realized that that's not something I wanted to be a part of. And somehow going through that kind of helped me grow, made me realize something
of myself, something like I don't need this. I can go on my own path.
And now, I suddenly realize that I was always the kind of person to kind of diverge, you know, the person who like maybe they're doing one thing and they enjoy it, but then they realize when it's not right for them when they realize it's not pulling them in in the sense that it's doing any good, but it's just kind of taking them away from something that they know needs to happen. And it's like I guess that's kind of how I've always been. I don't stick with things that I realize I don't need anymore. I don't stick with things that I know aren't good for me anymore. And there is something to commitment.
I commit. I can commit to something when I know it's right. When I know it's good. But when something isn't right anymore, I don't tend to waste too much time trying to convince myself of trying to hold on to it. And that's something I'm still navigating, wondering because then it becomes this thing of well, am I afraid? Am I trusting the unknown to hold on? Am I afraid to commit? Or is this something that I need to be confident in in myself and make this decision?
But I guess I just have to trust God that there is a direction and there is a version of me that does well. Not in a worldly sense, but in a sense that is real and true. Something that is in your soul.
either. I was just the quiet kid on the side.
There's this kind of situation of like people hang out with people. It's like a giant friend group and there's always
an inner friend group within a large friend group and people get left out. And I realized that that's not something I wanted to be a part of. And somehow going through that kind of helped me grow, made me realize something
of myself, something like I don't need this. I can go on my own path.
And now, I suddenly realize that I was always the kind of person to kind of diverge, you know, the person who like maybe they're doing one thing and they enjoy it, but then they realize when it's not right for them when they realize it's not pulling them in in the sense that it's doing any good, but it's just kind of taking them away from something that they know needs to happen. And it's like I guess that's kind of how I've always been. I don't stick with things that I realize I don't need anymore. I don't stick with things that I know aren't good for me anymore. And there is something to commitment.
I commit. I can commit to something when I know it's right. When I know it's good. But when something isn't right anymore, I don't tend to waste too much time trying to convince myself of trying to hold on to it. And that's something I'm still navigating, wondering because then it becomes this thing of well, am I afraid? Am I trusting the unknown to hold on? Am I afraid to commit? Or is this something that I need to be confident in in myself and make this decision?
But I guess I just have to trust God that there is a direction and there is a version of me that does well. Not in a worldly sense, but in a sense that is real and true. Something that is in your soul.
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