I wish I smiled back more often. I wish I waved back more often.
I wish I just wasn't so stuck up in my head most of the time and didn't lose the opportunity to be nice or lose the opportunity to get to know someone. All these things because I feel like at least for me and I still have this there's this feeling of social risk or this feeling of not wanting to put yourself out there or be embarrassed or do the wrong thing.
Like I remember one time I was in the hallway at school and there was this girl I knew and we just passed each
other and she smiled at me, but I didn't smile back even though I saw her and I wish I did. As soon as I passed her I
wish I smiled back because then I'm thinking, "Oh man, did I like give the wrong impression that I don't like her
or I dislike her as a person?" Like if I just smile back that's just like recognition confirmation that you know
you don't hate each other and if I just did that simple thing because I think what I did was I just had like a stern face on, like some serious face or maybe I just had like no expression but I did I did look at her and I wish I just smiled back, something so simple yet it means it means more than just a simple expression at least to me.
And another situation earlier this year, I was on a walk and then I saw someone I think I knew, but I couldn't see them because they were too far away. But they waved at me. And I looked behind me. There's no one around me. And still, I didn't wave back. And I continued on that walk, and I was thinking, man, I just wish I waved back to that person because I think I knew who it was even though I wasn't sure. And that person did confront me right on the street. It was horrible.
But it's like, why didn't I just wave back? What's the risk? Oh, I don't wave. If I wave back and then what? It's just a wave. But it's like from not doing it, I felt loss. I felt like I missed out on something that was nice, good, genuine. And it seems so simple, like you should, it's not a big deal. You should just forget it. And I'm over it.
Well, I am over it now. But it's still part of me like from now on, you know, I don't want to be that kind of person who's too secluded, who's too self-conscious or too worried about whatever else is going on to just recognize someone, to look someone in the eye when you pass them by, to smile, to nod, to wave. So, it's so simple, these interactions, yet I feel like they mean so much, more than we may give them credit for.
I don't want those kinds of invisible rules or invisible feelings of like resistance towards getting to know someone to stop me from the potential of something incredible. So now I'm going to smile back more often. I'm going to wave back more often, interact more often, and just see where it goes.
Like I remember one time I was in the hallway at school and there was this girl I knew and we just passed each
other and she smiled at me, but I didn't smile back even though I saw her and I wish I did. As soon as I passed her I
wish I smiled back because then I'm thinking, "Oh man, did I like give the wrong impression that I don't like her
or I dislike her as a person?" Like if I just smile back that's just like recognition confirmation that you know
you don't hate each other and if I just did that simple thing because I think what I did was I just had like a stern face on, like some serious face or maybe I just had like no expression but I did I did look at her and I wish I just smiled back, something so simple yet it means it means more than just a simple expression at least to me.
And another situation earlier this year, I was on a walk and then I saw someone I think I knew, but I couldn't see them because they were too far away. But they waved at me. And I looked behind me. There's no one around me. And still, I didn't wave back. And I continued on that walk, and I was thinking, man, I just wish I waved back to that person because I think I knew who it was even though I wasn't sure. And that person did confront me right on the street. It was horrible.
But it's like, why didn't I just wave back? What's the risk? Oh, I don't wave. If I wave back and then what? It's just a wave. But it's like from not doing it, I felt loss. I felt like I missed out on something that was nice, good, genuine. And it seems so simple, like you should, it's not a big deal. You should just forget it. And I'm over it.
Well, I am over it now. But it's still part of me like from now on, you know, I don't want to be that kind of person who's too secluded, who's too self-conscious or too worried about whatever else is going on to just recognize someone, to look someone in the eye when you pass them by, to smile, to nod, to wave. So, it's so simple, these interactions, yet I feel like they mean so much, more than we may give them credit for.
I don't want those kinds of invisible rules or invisible feelings of like resistance towards getting to know someone to stop me from the potential of something incredible. So now I'm going to smile back more often. I'm going to wave back more often, interact more often, and just see where it goes.
