I'm very tired... lol (?)
I don't know why I come here just when I'm not feeling the best but alas— I'm terribly anxious, tired, depressed... a bit scared even.
Change makes me feel those things a lot.
Logically, I understand change isn't inherently evil or dangerous, but emotionally, becoming conscious of the way certain things are moving in my life is very heavy for me and I have a horrible time trying to manage the feeling of not knowing where I'm going.
It feels like this year is going by incredibly fast and not fast enough at the same time, and that alone causes me a big deal of anxiety I've always had a lot of difficulty getting over.
I'm honestly just rambling, trying to get the anxiety out of my head and "let it go", wherever it is it wants to go.
I haven't really been able to sleep in a few days, and I feel strangely lonely in a way I hadn't felt in a while, so please excuse my poor penmanship.
I don't know what to do, or where to go, or what even are my options to do so.
Feels a little empty, you know? It's being a lot on my emotions but it feels like nothing as well.
*sigh*
Anyway. I want to promise myself that I'll take a breath, that I'll be okay with whatever it's coming to me, and I'll remember to sit back every once in a while to just let things happen.
Sometimes I struggle with the feeling that I have to fight everything, I'm working on taking this easy, no fighting, just observing.
I can do this. I trust myself.
Change makes me feel those things a lot.
Logically, I understand change isn't inherently evil or dangerous, but emotionally, becoming conscious of the way certain things are moving in my life is very heavy for me and I have a horrible time trying to manage the feeling of not knowing where I'm going.
It feels like this year is going by incredibly fast and not fast enough at the same time, and that alone causes me a big deal of anxiety I've always had a lot of difficulty getting over.
I'm honestly just rambling, trying to get the anxiety out of my head and "let it go", wherever it is it wants to go.
I haven't really been able to sleep in a few days, and I feel strangely lonely in a way I hadn't felt in a while, so please excuse my poor penmanship.
I don't know what to do, or where to go, or what even are my options to do so.
Feels a little empty, you know? It's being a lot on my emotions but it feels like nothing as well.
*sigh*
Anyway. I want to promise myself that I'll take a breath, that I'll be okay with whatever it's coming to me, and I'll remember to sit back every once in a while to just let things happen.
Sometimes I struggle with the feeling that I have to fight everything, I'm working on taking this easy, no fighting, just observing.
I can do this. I trust myself.
