It’s very exhausting to be the lone wolf type

I’m extremely selective with my friendships and I always have been. I value the deep connections that are based on trust and mutual respect and understanding and emotional connection. And being able to think alike and just have conversations that feel right and last for hours. I miss having that in my life terribly. I only have 1 friend to talk with but he lives in the UK and cares for his elderly mom so he’s limited with his time. I can handle just having my own company just fine. I’m not a codependent person but I truly miss having someone to have that deep closeness with that is so hard to find.