For every day i'm using the Google timer for 40 hrs, here's where I'm at now
I have the main level to myself, dad is doing ok, my RMR post is to be updated regularly but it will be very slow and gradual, it's frustrating for me that always without fail I think of things afterwards that I should have put it, and other things that I should have left out. Making these kinds of mistakes is what makes me me.
I like thinking out loud like this, which is why I don't just quit it.
I've taken my first gummies for the wake period also just prior to beginning this post here, I should put on a trippy or unique film when it's dark and when i'm alone, but I just feel like reading, and only what i'm obsessed about.
Perhaps after 30 minutes or more i'll feel like reading the many other things i'm blessed with, to continue a almost spiritual comparison of everything.
I don't have to only talk about reading, films, music, and food, those seem to be my prime topics, but if I had to write on other things or be silent, I'd be silent, I would read alternately to myself and out loud, the out loud can be a hushed whispers to a bombastic trumpeting, it can be serious, theatrical, and silly. It's how I get my kicks, and there's no real need to be sharing anything except through the enjoyment and therapeutic quality of being a snuggly Share Bear. *giggles*
There is something fundamentally wrong with how I share what my books are and stuff, it's not supposed to be showing off, and I fit in these kinds of disclaimers but then I ponder what in fact I do with my sharing and see it in all it's rank and putrid ugliness. That is partly why I don't like going back to edit posts, I want to forget my faux pas, like they never happened!!
However, I am very pleased with what i've got, very blessed, with this kind of blessing, there comes a obligation not to waste it, to use for my own and others' profit what they offer, to not speak dumbly about the high and lofty, the sublime and pure, for when I do so, I reduce my own value, and place a curse upon my balding head.
