Nothing left but you and your thoughts at night lol

I had a choice to make, to nurse my anger in resentment or I can help others to ease their suffering as a way to ease my own an that's what I did and that worked, it worked for a long time but you know life is such a pitiless thing, just when you think you have everything under control that you're on the right path that something can happen something as simple as seeing one person face and suddenly in an instinct everything you have struggled with the lost, the misery, the fear, the anger, rages up until it consume you all over again, like a fire.