Where are my druggies at

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Not funny is this topic

But I need to talk to people who are dealing with addiction and possibly be friends and swap thoughts.

Sitting here by myself and constantly lying to myself and my neighbours and family that
“I’m ok really…”
When it’s obvious I’m not

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HermannFegelein · 26-30, M

I’m an alcoholic. I relapsed recently and I think I lost my job.

If you ever need someone to talk to, there’s plenty of people here who can relate.

My question to you though:

Why do you use? What’s got you all messed up inside. Doing drugs is bad for ya and I feel like a hypocrite saying that because I’m a hardcore alcoholic.

I’m not even 1 hour sober because I get the shakes really bad. I gotta ease off the booze but going cold Turkey hardly ever works. It felt like I was gonna have a heart attack today.

Anyway, good luck with getting clean, it’s a battle but I think if we keep getting back up we can get clean and sober for good.

wombat1234 · 41-45, F

@HermannFegelein thank you for sharing.
There’s a lot going on in my head. But the only way I’m gonna make sense of it is talking to people who have been through the same situation.
It feels good to know I’m not alone and that there is hope.
Wish you the best for your fight too

Kendoll33 · 31-35

Right here. But I'm getting better. Therapy does wonders so does journaling ( Not being a smart arse). Yes I'm a male who journals and seeks a therapist.

OogieBoogie · F

I've dealt with it ...from both sides .
It's a tough call, everyone finds their own path .

But aknowledging it is the first step . It's the hardest to step ...it's very scary .

Find a counselor or therapist you can start with .
Once you get talking to one person, it makes it easier to start conversations with people you know about it.

Be prepared though....everyone is going to have their own ideas about it, and views . Some will be mindblowingly accepting , while others will just bring you down . some will probably already have guessed and will be relieved you're facing it.

And you will find out who your real friends are .

It's not going to be easy .
You will have great days , bad days , success and failure . It might be likely you end up swapping one addiction for one that is less harmfull, but even that is a step forward, and it's like a practice run to go round two to slowly make a cleaner life.

Remember though, true healing takes time . So even if it's small steps , weeks apart: to use less often, or smaller doses or whatever path you take....it's the general path forward that counts

Don't make high expectations, dont do drastic steps ....they can be too much of a change and cause you slip back or binge . Keep your improvement in doable sizes : staying a little bit better, is better than being clean for a week or two and then having a blinder .
Cold turkey is pretty Brutal....you can hurt people you love because you feel so shitty .

Get used to wanting to sleep more 😅

And be kind to yourself when you slip up ...tomorrow is a new day.

💜

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OogieBoogie · F

@dubkebab thanks . I find getting clear of these things isn't a "I'm clean for a week so I'm all better thing " ....which I've experienced [i]those [/i] people - and they're not better. They just go on a cycle of using and and not using and stay in their delusion ....and usually eventually fall back into continual use .

It's suuuuch a looooooong path .
You really can't make any sort of assessment of yourself till after a whole year, where you can look back and say ' Yes , I WAS cleaner".

And there's so many stages . Some are good, some you just don't want to get out of bed for two weeks. And even after you're clean of whatever you used ...you have to learn how to live again ....and that's a jourmey within itself.

dubkebab · 51-55, M

@OogieBoogie It's certainly complicated delving into the underlying motives for why we became overly fond of self-medicating in the first place...but oh-so rewarding to pick up on those clues and use them to build a foundation of better life choices. I remember being more than a little offended when digging through my emotional wreckage with a very keen dope counselor who stated-"well,keep in mind that you're still in early recovery..." And I wanted to yell "Damn,lady I just went a WHOLE damned YEAR without a toke or a TINY little civilized glass of wine and yer calling that EARLY recovery!?! I just completed step 3 !!!-like a hero!" ummm,you had a point,Kris. I'll never forget that.

OogieBoogie · F

@dubkebab hahaha....it's like that isn't it?
I mean, they are HUGE milestones being clean....but MAN!....it's still a fine edge .

When I'm around people who still smoke (stuff😏), I know it'd take [i] absolutely nothing [/i] to trip over that edge ....just a whiff of a thought , and I'd be back in .
And it's been years and years .

But then, I'm also at a point where I don't think about it, crave it ....or even want it in my life.
I'm glad I have got the where I CAN be around these people and not feel my mind crawl with want of it.

It's ironic that it's something so easy to fall into , but such a long road out.

But I am so glad I've lost the chaos that came with it ....it nearly did me in: the good times were so good , but the bad times were fucking devistating!

dubkebab · 51-55, M

You are not alone. By asking for support you are taking a step towards avoiding a very bleak and progressively more painful future. If I can quit,anyone can. Go easy.

GlitterEater · 36-40, F

Yo.

Nihiless

Most of SW use drugs, it is now your oyster. 🙄

Kendoll33 · 31-35

@Nihiless God bless

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