i am bipolar

she was a girl
so lost
she found herself
living in lies
lost deep in a ocean

unsure of who to be
everyday


she meets a boy
one who has experienced life
one hard in ways she couldnt imagine.


he is quite about his wiseness
she belives
her tomfoolery brought
it out of him.

she falls for this boy
and unknowingly
she traps him in a web
of lies and darkness.

a love so intense
both trying so hard
the comfort in eachother arms
not knowing what to say.

building a house with a patchy foundation
realizing the issue was within me
i was the foundation he was helping me build a home.
i was the one to tear it down
because i couldn’t be honest.


i have lost a love
i dont think
i could ever reconize
feel again.



i am on the correct medications now but i still feel weird about the world