The only problem is if I don’t succeed in committing suicide then my best friend would stop being my friend because I attempted it. That’s what she said straight out. But I really don’t want to be alive right now.
Remember that these thoughts, and this moment are temporary. Life will get better if you give it time. You are loved and valued, giving up only shifts your pain onto those who love you. If you are in the united states you can call or text 988 to talk to a crisis worker and help get you what you need to get through this moment. Please hold on.