Thoughts #756786
Yesterday's good mood didn't last. I guess hoping it would last was expecting too much. I spent time with a friend yesterday, and she posited the possibility of me being autistic; it's something I'd heard once before, but I'm not sure if it's actually a reasonable consideration to make. Like, I'm as detached from and non-similar to autistic people I've met as I am to the 'normal' people I've met. I've met literally one person who seems (to me) different to others in the same way that I feel like I'm different, and it's... that friend's kid who's a teenager. Because that's definitely not weird at all, and just another thing to hate myself for.
I wish I was normal. Why can't I just be normal and relate to other humans like everyone else seems capable of. Maybe I'm just stuck alone forever; it would explain why nobody's ever been super interested in me or left after a short time. But then depression could also explain that so who knows.
I wish I was normal. Why can't I just be normal and relate to other humans like everyone else seems capable of. Maybe I'm just stuck alone forever; it would explain why nobody's ever been super interested in me or left after a short time. But then depression could also explain that so who knows.
