I don't think I'm OK right now: a compilation of thoughts

Today was exhausting, having to lug around a good 3-5kg of stuff to work, then from work to warhammer. But lately loneliness has been getting worse too, presumably due to turning 30 and feeling worthless and alone now and forever. I'm running on what feels like empty and have been for a little while now, just going forwards on momentum alone like a zombie. And everyday life has been far more draining than it used to over the same period. It's probably one of those slumps from reflecting on life and coming up negatively. Hopefully ot will pass soon.

Also as soon as I post things it has a logged view, which seems weird? Like, is it just counting me posting as a view on that post, or is someone actually reading these? It's been bugging me a bit.