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“In a strange way, I had fallen in love with my depression. I loved it because I thought it was all I had. I thought depression was the part of my character that made me worthwhile. I thought so little of myself, felt that I had such scant offerings to give to the world, that the one thing that justified my existence at all was my agony.” —Elizabeth Wurtzel, Prozac Nation

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SW-User

That is sad. To feel that worthless. :(

...I never loved my depression, I despised it.

I can see what she is saying, though.

PhoenixPhail · M

@SW-User To a great degree, it defines me.

SW-User

@PhoenixPhail
You seem and intelligent soul.
We know depression lies.
Most people who feel so worthless have had some kind of trauma in their lives.
They been programmed to think they are not worth much.
But, it is just past voices lying to us.

PhoenixPhail · M

@SW-User Quite true. But the worthlessness comes as a result of the product of the brain, and the result of the body (which remembers everything that's happened to it) being out of alignment with each other. It's easy for me to tell myself it's all in the past. But my body keeps believing the injuries, the traumas, are happening in the present. It's quite a dilemma.

SW-User

@PhoenixPhail I kinda began to think of it as a tape recorder in the brain telling me those things over and over again.
I thought, perhaps, like a tape recording it could be written over.
It sounds crazy, but I started refuting those claims inside myself, asking if I would treat a stranger the way I was treating myself or would I comfort and care for them?
It has helped some to look at it that way, not sure if it is of help to you, people are not cookie cutters, just know it helped me.

PhoenixPhail · M

I'm glad you found a way to crawl out from under. These are things I've been dealing with all my life. There's a lot of momentum behind my traumas and subsequent survival strategies. There IS some movement, but progress is slow. The old paradigm is very stubborn.

SW-User

@PhoenixPhail I have had some trauma, to me it was very bad, but I have heard of real horror stories and that is not my story.

PhoenixPhail · M

@SW-User My abuse was extreme. Even though my parents are now deceased, I'm still terrified of them to this day. But, I'm still hopeful, more or less. Some days it's moment to moment.

SW-User

@PhoenixPhail So,sorry to hear that.
I use to have dreams that my mother was chasing me in a field to beat me, and she rarely hit me at all, it was her words that she used as her weapons.
I was molested by a male family member as well. That went on a few years.
You do not need to tell me anything.
I just know something of the pain of abuse.

PhoenixPhail · M

@SW-User I'm sorry those things happened to you. I know words can be just as damaging as something physical, sometimes more so. I, too, know the pain of molestation. I empathize with you about your experience, and I thank you for your empathy about mine. You seem a very kind person.
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