I Lost Someone To Suicide

Two people in fact one a few weeks ago and the other one just a few minutes ago I'm still in shock but I have failed.I tried so hard to save them but I failed this is why it's hard for me to make friends and keep them on sorry that I failed them like my grandfather I tried so hard and I just 😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😭😭😭😭😭😭😭