Anyone know someone who's commited suicide?

I do. Sadly there are a quite a few and each year that number seems to grow. However there are two that still and will forever really affect me. I carry a ton of guilt from each. I try to talk about them more than I have in previous years. Telling the stories seem to get a little easier each time, but all the pain, guilt, and sorrow will forever be wrapped up tightly clenching at my heart.