I’m finding it a very huge struggle.

I strongly urge you to talk to a professional instead we random SWeepers on here. Could be dangerous. Then again I am a SWeep so what the hell do I know? Seriously, friend, it won't hurt to talk with a professional. Your issues are probably a lot more common than you think.

That's a hard struggle; and the more you become feeling, no one accepts you, you belong nowhere, you find yourself with no one to belong with. Do you have something you love? Can be anything.

Wow! That's a biggie. Why do you feel detached from your surroundings and those who know you?

Me, too.