I learnt a lot

I remember I spent most of my teen years trying to end my life over 10 times and I was always getting drunk , self harming and having an eating disorder just doing everything I can so I didn’t have to see another day. I was miserable and I hated life so much. I cried most days too and I was always getting into trouble. And I nearly died too. But it wasn’t until I turned 19 before I realised all that energy I put into trying to end my life I could have been making it better or everything I wanted. Now I’m in my 20s , I see every day as beautiful, even if it’s an bad day there’s always something positive in it even if it’s small , you just have to find it. I’m not 100% happy with my life , but I don’t hate life anymore and I don’t want to end my life anymore, there’s always something to live for and if you put in the effort to change it instead of trying to end it than you too can have an great life. It takes time and it never happens straight away but each day is an new day and that gives you the opportunity to turn it all around. And if something doesn’t work out that just means you are meant for something so much more better ❤️🦇 if you want you can always message me to talk , I don’t mind , I would also recommend an therapist as I can’t fix you or help you long term , but I’m always here to listen as I’ve been there myself. I have an long list of trauma so I know What it feels like to want to end your life.