Nobody really understands this

I’ve been wanting to end my life for years now and I tried so many times so sometimes the slightest inconvenience really bothers me but not the point I want to die and nobody sees that so many things built up to it over the years , they just assume it’s over something so small when I say I feel like that , nobody ends their life over not getting what they want or not having much money or even a bad day for example. If I that was true everyone would be dead because that happens to everyone. When someone says that and it seems small to you , there’s always something really big behind it that nobody knows about. I’m just venting because I fell out with my friend over it. This year has been so hard in particular for me so it doesn’t help. I wished people understood this.