I Am a Suicide Survivor
Hello everyone, so this isn's easy to talk about.
But I want to get it out of my system.
April 20 of this year not long ago.
I was have a horrible day, I was arguing all day with my fiancee, and everything was going wrong.
That night my horrible roommates came home with all kinds of food. I told them if they're going to cook, clean up your mess. (They always leave a huge mess, and leftovers to spoil on the stove, I always have to clean it. They are 20, and 31 they know better I was tired of it)
Anyways, they go crazy, and screaming insults, and talking crap on my dad whos in failing health, and my mother who passed away 4yrs ago this month.
A fight broke out between my fiancee, and the 31yr old who happens to be his oldest brother.
I tried to stop it, but the brother hit my on the side of the head, idk if it was accidental, or on purpose.
I sat down on the couch, and idk what happened.
I remember going into the bathroom, and locking the door.
I had a breakdown, and blacked out.
Next thing I knew my fiancee trying to get in calling my name, I look down, and see a lot of blood.
He gets in, and tells me my neck is bleeding really bad, and we have to get to the hospital.
I had slit the left part of my neck, including some of my face.
I was in, and out of consciousness because I was losing so much blood.
The doctor told me I was really lucky, I barely missed a major artery,
I had to get 26 stitches.
I was in the hospital 6 days under heavy monitoring.
Im happy I didn't die. I have so much more to give.
I dont wont to even think what it'd do to my fiancee if I died.
He's the only one who visited me, brought me stuff at the hospital.
Actually the only one I talked to. :(
I also don't want to hurt my dad like that, he's in enough pain as it is.
If anyone wants to talk, or needs someone.
Im always here, and wont judge you because I know what its like.
But I want to get it out of my system.
April 20 of this year not long ago.
I was have a horrible day, I was arguing all day with my fiancee, and everything was going wrong.
That night my horrible roommates came home with all kinds of food. I told them if they're going to cook, clean up your mess. (They always leave a huge mess, and leftovers to spoil on the stove, I always have to clean it. They are 20, and 31 they know better I was tired of it)
Anyways, they go crazy, and screaming insults, and talking crap on my dad whos in failing health, and my mother who passed away 4yrs ago this month.
A fight broke out between my fiancee, and the 31yr old who happens to be his oldest brother.
I tried to stop it, but the brother hit my on the side of the head, idk if it was accidental, or on purpose.
I sat down on the couch, and idk what happened.
I remember going into the bathroom, and locking the door.
I had a breakdown, and blacked out.
Next thing I knew my fiancee trying to get in calling my name, I look down, and see a lot of blood.
He gets in, and tells me my neck is bleeding really bad, and we have to get to the hospital.
I had slit the left part of my neck, including some of my face.
I was in, and out of consciousness because I was losing so much blood.
The doctor told me I was really lucky, I barely missed a major artery,
I had to get 26 stitches.
I was in the hospital 6 days under heavy monitoring.
Im happy I didn't die. I have so much more to give.
I dont wont to even think what it'd do to my fiancee if I died.
He's the only one who visited me, brought me stuff at the hospital.
Actually the only one I talked to. :(
I also don't want to hurt my dad like that, he's in enough pain as it is.
If anyone wants to talk, or needs someone.
Im always here, and wont judge you because I know what its like.
31-35, F
