I’m a little awkward and that was hard in social settings.

In life I’ve also met a lot of mean and cruel people and that has made my anxiety a lot worse to where I prefer staying in side.

Decades ago when I didn’t under the engineering and chemistry behind pencils, A bully chased me around school trying to stab me with a pencil. I was afraid getting poisoned from pencils. To this day I don’t know whether he knew it was a different kind of “lead”, hated being in class or was just a sadist.