It really sucks tryna. Prove sthg to someone and no matter how hard u try u never succeed

Its like a hell circle everyday u try and try and try but for some mysterious reason u cant... At the end the rzsult is the same nothing works out... Im tired of that.. That feeling... Anxiety im tired if feeling like the whole world and ppl are against and tryna hurt me with all kinds of ways... I feel alone and helpless and scared.. To death maybe... Its lkke im living in a nightmare where i cant get rid if or get out of... I feel crippled maybe iam... Im tired.. I dont wanna prove any thing to anyone anymore everybody is waiting for a small unintended mistake from me everybody's waiting for me to fall or trip on sthg so they can hurt me more im done with that...