So how’s everyone
Went for a walk
Mom motivated me to go and I felt a lot better
Strange how I forgot something so simple that a walk can change my feelings.
I think stress caused me to forget maybe
But home alone.
Being alone scares me sometimes
Anyway I went to the shops earlier
My panic attacks in public are getting worse
Like I’m too scared to go into two specific supermarkets as I had a full blown anxiety pan I’ve meltdown in one and then the other on a different day.
But today I went into one of them. I made it quick. Got basics no eye contact.
I felt my chest go super tight my forehead area go sore.
Like I was being radiated by some heat source
Now I’m home even though this is where I wanted to be
I feel deep feelings of loneliness
I think it should get better. I’m trying to stay Patient. There are a couple of things on the horizon that I know will change the game
I will be getting a car soon but this month or next
It will be January. Long wait
Also some home changes. But mainly the car will change how I feel I think. Then (because I live out in the countryside) I think getting in my car going to see people I love will be so much easier.
Mom motivated me to go and I felt a lot better
Strange how I forgot something so simple that a walk can change my feelings.
I think stress caused me to forget maybe
But home alone.
Being alone scares me sometimes
Anyway I went to the shops earlier
My panic attacks in public are getting worse
Like I’m too scared to go into two specific supermarkets as I had a full blown anxiety pan I’ve meltdown in one and then the other on a different day.
But today I went into one of them. I made it quick. Got basics no eye contact.
I felt my chest go super tight my forehead area go sore.
Like I was being radiated by some heat source
Now I’m home even though this is where I wanted to be
I feel deep feelings of loneliness
I think it should get better. I’m trying to stay Patient. There are a couple of things on the horizon that I know will change the game
I will be getting a car soon but this month or next
It will be January. Long wait
Also some home changes. But mainly the car will change how I feel I think. Then (because I live out in the countryside) I think getting in my car going to see people I love will be so much easier.
