social anxiety sucks…

I go through this also. But every single time i go through with it anyway because i dont want fear to win. And 100% of the time, i mean every single one i always say to myself "im glad that i did this it was fun". I used to dread the Christmas party at my last job and it was mandatory if it fell on a day that you were scheduled to work so i couldn't call out or just not go. Because it was during the middle of the day on a day that i always worked. Every year i dread it and every year i had fun anyway. It was so bad my anxiety that i told people not to even mention the party in front of me. Because i would feel panicked.