Ive come to an existential crisis

I’m not moving forward anymore because I don’t care to. I’ve never failed at anything I’ve set my mind to. I’m failing now. I suspect it’s because I’m fundamentally icky inside. I need to clean that part of me. Cut that cancer out. I’ve grown to love my monster though. He carried me and kept me safe while the world was throwing flames and rocks at my head.

Time to evolve. Just sucks though