I Pretend I'm Okay

I missed having an EP account where I could write whatever I wanted. I just started going on this site a few days ago. I wish they had an app though.

Anyways, I feel like I've been struggling so much for the past weeks or maybe months. I don't really know anymore. I keep telling myself I will get help but when I actually go & see the doctor I can't tell them what's wrong. I kept myself busy by working so much the past few weeks & my body decided to finally shut down. I haven't work for the past 5 days... the longest break I ever had.

I feel like if I bug my friends about my problems every single time they would eventually get sick of me. It's easier to pretend everything's going great. Sometimes everything gets a little tough & I don't know if I'm able to survive through all of it. My family, my future, my love life..nothing is going right. I just want to be genuinely happy for once.

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Chickie · F

I agree and I know how you feel. On EP you could write whatever you wanted and get some support without having second thoughts that you're annoying people. It seems that most people on SAW are about not taking things seriously and having fun people forget that social networking is for. And those people aren't your real friend if they feel like there's rain on their parade when you want to vent I know what that feels like. I have yet to see a doctor too I told my dad about and he told me we would see one as soon as we get on insurance! And I so relive when he agreed and didn't questioned me.

Good luck to you

phxts · 26-30, F

Yeah so true... that's great news! It's good that your dad is supportive. I wish you the best. <3