I Pretend I'm Okay

I missed having an EP account where I could write whatever I wanted. I just started going on this site a few days ago. I wish they had an app though.

Anyways, I feel like I've been struggling so much for the past weeks or maybe months. I don't really know anymore. I keep telling myself I will get help but when I actually go & see the doctor I can't tell them what's wrong. I kept myself busy by working so much the past few weeks & my body decided to finally shut down. I haven't work for the past 5 days... the longest break I ever had.

I feel like if I bug my friends about my problems every single time they would eventually get sick of me. It's easier to pretend everything's going great. Sometimes everything gets a little tough & I don't know if I'm able to survive through all of it. My family, my future, my love life..nothing is going right. I just want to be genuinely happy for once.

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SW-User

Holding it all in will not help in the long run, it'll only drive you deeper into your sorrow. If you can, try to open up to one of your friends. If they are a true friend, they're going to want to be there for you and won't begrudge you for needing someone to talk with.

phxts · 26-30, F

I'll try opening up. I just don't want to feel like a burden to them so most of the time I prefer to keep it to myself.

SW-User

I know how that feels, wanting to hold it all in. Unfortunately, it only helps to make you feel more isolated, even if you feel good about not spreading your misery. Finding someone you can open up to can take a lot of the weight off and maybe give you another perspective to view things from.

phxts · 26-30, F

You're right. I'll give it a try. Thank you so much. @Liebik: