I Pretend I'm Okay

I missed having an EP account where I could write whatever I wanted. I just started going on this site a few days ago. I wish they had an app though.

Anyways, I feel like I've been struggling so much for the past weeks or maybe months. I don't really know anymore. I keep telling myself I will get help but when I actually go & see the doctor I can't tell them what's wrong. I kept myself busy by working so much the past few weeks & my body decided to finally shut down. I haven't work for the past 5 days... the longest break I ever had.

I feel like if I bug my friends about my problems every single time they would eventually get sick of me. It's easier to pretend everything's going great. Sometimes everything gets a little tough & I don't know if I'm able to survive through all of it. My family, my future, my love life..nothing is going right. I just want to be genuinely happy for once.