How long can you last pretending not to miss someone? But really, why do we pretend at all?

Pretend you do not wish to hear their voice or see their smile
Pretend there wasn't an empty space with their name on your thoughts

Is it the courage that is lacking?
Or the willingness to be hurt again?

Is it that you are waiting for them to reach out first?
Apologize? Finally discuss what went wrong?
Or is it because if they don't then you can't let yourself be the first one to extend a hand by principle?
Why though?
What is the point?

I don't think there are many people we happen to cross paths with and like, not just for what they look like outside, but for what their souls feel like around us.

But how so easily, we let things slip pass our hands.

A memory or a friend,
Something to regret or a lesson to learn,
A thing of the past or something worth a part in your future

I have never seen myself a coward (except with some certain things like frogs and insects).

But these things, I do let slip, only allowing myself the moments when I ask myself the whys.

But deep inside, maybe I do know the answer.
Because whoever reaches out first is the one who felt more love.
And no one likes to reveal such things.

(Reflections & Musings)

dragonfly46 · F

I've actually been thinking about this lately. I have had different versions of missing someone. You can't get to my age and have everyone around still.

This latest case, was most interesting. In that loyalty to what once was kept us afloat. Realizing there was nothing more than occasional musings and a Happy Birthday shout out seemed disrespectful to what we once were.

Do I miss him, or his drama. I'm peaceful now, but man could he make me laugh, and make me see myself for who I really am. He made me happy and tired at the same time.

I grew up and out and so did he, but in a different direction. So, we visit that place we were comfortable, but it's so cold and lonely there now, yet he's standing right there....

So we said goodbye.

I miss him every single day.