I May Act Like I Am Not Sad When I Really Am Sad

I miss my husband ....he still has not come back home and we haven't spoke in month. Sometimes I don't understand how a man who says he loves me so much ..that I make him so happy and a man who promised he will be everything that I ever needed ... spiritually physical and emotional. And he promised that he will blow my brains off in bed .
But he is so cruel to me he don't talk to me...don't pick up the phone to phone me ... don't send me flowers nothing. I fell in love with the cruelist most manipulative man in the world ...but I love him so much I can't imagine being without him ...I love u babe please come back home to me