I May Act Like I Am Not Sad When I Really Am Sad

I feel broken after learning that my grandfather's illness is terminal. He has reached a stage when he can't talk and is immobile. I was raised by my grandparents from the time I was 11 months to 7 years and my grandfather was the most amazing person in my life. When I completed my studies he helped me fervently find a good job. He's always been strong, athletic, agile and energetic. He has a heart of gold and is a prayerful man. I hanged out a lot with my grandfather and never felt bothered even as a teen going on dinner dates or movie dates with him. Seeing him now flood my eyes with tears, am sad he will never see my children or see my wedding. Am questioning life seeing a great man so dear to me fade out. It hurts so bad 😔