Life update :)

Hi guys, update. I came home from school yesterday and didn’t manage to take a shower because I had a really important homework. I also didn’t eat at all because I felt like I could lose a few kgs. At chinese tutoring, I had a panic attack 10 minutes in to class, so I couldn’t talk and went to my room to calm down. My dad tried to make me talk but I told him that I was stress (biggest regret). He told my mother I wasn’t eating or talking which my mom thought was rude of me even tho I had a panic attack so she shouted at me for a few minutes through video call (she’s in a diff country) . Called me things like “b*tch” “disgrace” and saying I act worse than an animal. It really hurts so I started crying, and she said she knows me well so I’m “fake crying”. If she knows me so well, then why won’t she listen when I told her I have panic attacks? My dad chimed in and started saying things like, “oh, she won’t eat because she’s being rude” which made my mom angrier. I didn’t eat dinner and only slept for 2 hours. Woke up and went to school like normal but can’t help but feel guilty. I want to say I hate my family, but they put a roof over my head and clothes on my back so can’t complain. Thanks for reading all the way to the end. Love y’all <3