Insomnia seems to be my current scourge!
I hope that makes sense! I’m suffering from anxiety and insomnia, and I have been given some medication by my doctor that I don’t think I can take because I don’t want to be abused by big pharma.
My daughter does her best to help me relax so I can sleep, and I try things like masturbation to help me with other things but I have a good deal of trouble getting off to sleep most nights. No I am not masturbating every night!
I pray for relief from my hardships too, and I do talk with the Father about my regret for my sins, and yes I am a dreadful sinner. My baby boy was dead inside me, and they had to give me the drugs to kick my system into delivery (otherwise I would have died too). Still I feel desperately sad that my sinfulness brought this on me.
I have had everything explained to me countless times but still I feel there was something I did to make this happen, for my baby to die. The doctors have said it was genetic, and most likely from Edoardo’s side of things. My mother has said she had a miscarriage between my brother and me, but it was early, much earlier in her pregnancy and not in any way related to my loss.
I’m anxious especially when I am in bed alone. I think Chiara knows, hears me, and she gets up from her bed to come to my bed to sleep with me. Sometimes it is she cuddling me instead of me cuddling her.
I’m going to bed later than usual most nights.
My daughter does her best to help me relax so I can sleep, and I try things like masturbation to help me with other things but I have a good deal of trouble getting off to sleep most nights. No I am not masturbating every night!
I pray for relief from my hardships too, and I do talk with the Father about my regret for my sins, and yes I am a dreadful sinner. My baby boy was dead inside me, and they had to give me the drugs to kick my system into delivery (otherwise I would have died too). Still I feel desperately sad that my sinfulness brought this on me.
I have had everything explained to me countless times but still I feel there was something I did to make this happen, for my baby to die. The doctors have said it was genetic, and most likely from Edoardo’s side of things. My mother has said she had a miscarriage between my brother and me, but it was early, much earlier in her pregnancy and not in any way related to my loss.
I’m anxious especially when I am in bed alone. I think Chiara knows, hears me, and she gets up from her bed to come to my bed to sleep with me. Sometimes it is she cuddling me instead of me cuddling her.
I’m going to bed later than usual most nights.
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